The days are long, the nights are longer

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Today has been… well, I imagine you know how today has been. Depending on how long it’s been since Alice’s last dose of medicine, she’s either been really great, or really really sick. We jump back and forth between normal silly baby and floppy burning baby. Thankfully Tom has a new shift where he is home at 9:30 am, so even when the girls wake up at 5:30, the hours we are alone together are limited (granted that Tom is not working second shift at his other job). Today he come home, took Ella to music class, and Alice napped on my back while I finished her halloween costume. It was a nice little break, even though my back was burning by the time she woke up.

The Children’s Emergency Center last night was better than I expected, and worse. We didn’t have to wait at all, the nurses were great, and the exam rooms were above par. But within twenty minutes of walking in the door, we saw two different doctors who disagreed on almost every point. One was worried to the point of wanting an IV and chest xrays, and the other was pushing us out the door with a pat on the head. I couldn’t decide which approach I disliked more – being treated like I was an idiot for bringing her in, or being treated like an idiot for not bringing her in sooner. It didn’t do much for my confidence in either of them, but when we were given the option to either come home or stay in a different wing of the hospital than the children’s center, I chose to bring her home. I made the right decision – she is eating and drinking today, and her fever is breaking every few hours – but the whole episode reinforced that chip in my shoulder.

I started writing out the handful of times I’ve been to the hospital in the last 10 years, but it just made me anxious and snarly. And tonight is not about that. Tonight is about Almond Sunset tea, knitting birthday crown #2, and catching up on Heros while Alice sleeps in my lap. Motherhood: trying not to burn the baby with hot tea while you knit and watch predictable TV. Pretty much sums it up I guess.

5 Responses to The days are long, the nights are longer

  1. FireMom says:

    Hope she’s feeling better soon. Hope you’re able to get things done as well.

  2. Carrie says:

    I loved your writing at school so I’m glad I found your blog–you’re great at whatever you’re writing. Every time Halloween rolls around and I see all these ‘scary’ decorations I think–actually the scariest thing in the world is a sick baby. I hope you’re hanging in there. One thing that has worked for my kids (we have 3 now) is to give them 1/2 teaspoon of coconut oil (cold-pressed, virgin or refined) 3 times a day, mix it in with their food, or mix it with a little warm juice. Weirdly enough it has antiviral and antibacterial properties, with zero side effects, and the virgin stuff tastes pretty good. I hope it helps your baby. Keep writing

    Carrie Bowles

  3. chance says:

    :( boo for sick babies….
    I hope she is feeling better now!

  4. Chelsea says:

    ack. I’m so sorry about alice — and am hoping today is better. in the past couple of years I’ve had several visits to the er for really odd reasons and got put through the medical systems hoops quite a bit, and quite blindly. it wasn’t until becoming pregnant that I think I really took responsibility for understanding whats going on and having a mind to question the typical model of healthcare. I was really lucky to have totally open and respectful midwives all along the way — I didn’t realize how lucky until my mom insisted I visit her ob on a visit home for an emergency dose of rogham. He was so condemning and cynical and really refused to make room for any understanding of the choices I’ve made, it really laid out for me that going the more alternative midwife-route is the best thing. It must have been terribly frustrating to deal with doctors that condescend in the middle of a stressful situation like having a little one with such a high fever — it seems like alice is in good hands now (yours).

  5. Debra M says:

    Yep, that’s motherhood. I’ve been in that exact situation about every other night it seems, but with black tea and a pillow to embroider and probably watching Keith Olbermann.
    I hope Alice feels better soon. The girls costumes are super cute. I can’t even get Gavin into one this year, so I’m not sure how trick-or-treating is going to go.
    And if you have Carrie Bowles’ email, can you send her my blog? I haven’t talked to her in a long time.
    Oh, yeah, I got a blog. So now I don’t just feel like a stalker when I randomly comment on yours :)

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