Today has been… well, I imagine you know how today has been. Depending on how long it’s been since Alice’s last dose of medicine, she’s either been really great, or really really sick. We jump back and forth between normal silly baby and floppy burning baby. Thankfully Tom has a new shift where he is home at 9:30 am, so even when the girls wake up at 5:30, the hours we are alone together are limited (granted that Tom is not working second shift at his other job). Today he come home, took Ella to music class, and Alice napped on my back while I finished her halloween costume. It was a nice little break, even though my back was burning by the time she woke up.
The Children’s Emergency Center last night was better than I expected, and worse. We didn’t have to wait at all, the nurses were great, and the exam rooms were above par. But within twenty minutes of walking in the door, we saw two different doctors who disagreed on almost every point. One was worried to the point of wanting an IV and chest xrays, and the other was pushing us out the door with a pat on the head. I couldn’t decide which approach I disliked more – being treated like I was an idiot for bringing her in, or being treated like an idiot for not bringing her in sooner. It didn’t do much for my confidence in either of them, but when we were given the option to either come home or stay in a different wing of the hospital than the children’s center, I chose to bring her home. I made the right decision – she is eating and drinking today, and her fever is breaking every few hours – but the whole episode reinforced that chip in my shoulder.
I started writing out the handful of times I’ve been to the hospital in the last 10 years, but it just made me anxious and snarly. And tonight is not about that. Tonight is about Almond Sunset tea, knitting birthday crown #2, and catching up on Heros while Alice sleeps in my lap. Motherhood: trying not to burn the baby with hot tea while you knit and watch predictable TV. Pretty much sums it up I guess.