The Trivial Pursuit of Happiness

walked around forever with my best friend tonight. talked for the first time seriously about me leaveing, and her staying, and everyhting that goes along with that.

this is the only person who i can not lie to. Not even little ones, the ones that slip, like “um, no, i didn’t leave out the cereal…’. the only one who has ever known when to let me be heartbroken, and when enough is enough. she has been my left leg for so long, that latley i have limped.

so much has changed. people i barely know have mentioned it, us being ..well.. seperatlable again. It’s not that that connection is in anyway lost.. it’s just that we have found lives outside of one another. Blame it on boys, and cars, and differing hobbies.. but really, i think it’s just .. time. growing up.

and for the first time, tonight, i can admit these thngs, without crying.

i left her once, not by choice, and did not know how i could breathe without her.
i came back whole, wanting only to hold her hand.

i leave again, in a couple monthes, letting go of her hand.
yet holding on to so much more.

.. strange how life is , at this very moment in my life. so unlike anything i would of imagined.

i’m home, but where’s angie???????

so what is the opposite of plab, boys?

do you ever read other people’s friends page? I always read ’s friends page…. to lazy to add all those people to mine.

anyone heard of a recipe for asperagus wrapped in bacon?
just a question.

STEVENSON – CHENEY
appx. distance: 300 miles
time: 5-6 hours driving

So, gas being at $1.50 average, and we’ll say 20 miles to the gallon, thats
$22.50 in gas money, one way.
$10 dollors the first day, and $20 the second, makes $30 in food money.
half a $65 room, is $32.5
school crap (testig and whatnot?) $60
spending money $30

total projected spending to go to cheney on thursday:
$175

so far:

motel 6 – $50
holiday inn – $72
best western – $65
take the money and run

things to do on my days off:

put check in bank
get bro
take him out
see my dad?
activate debit card
go get car (that is really first)
find directions to cheney
call and make sure he called eastern….
see if we are bringing along ‘others’
clean car
wash clothes
find lisa

play play play play play

come hang out with me. it’d be great.

“off to work,” she says, worrie about her friend, tired, and having already cryied out of anger at NOTHING once today. She’s still in her PJ’s, and must leave by 10:30 ………………………………

only place for this day to go is up…………………

here’s directions

Antagony, End of all, Boof, The Dead Unknown

Start Time: 6:30 PM
Event Category: Entertainment

Punk/Grunge. Admission $6. Ethos is an all ages smoke/alcohol free venue located on the corner of Killingsworth & Williams in North Portland. Call 503-288-4166 for more information.

*lesigh*