The Trivial Pursuit of Happiness

oh oh oh oh oh. i don’t understand people.

if you ask “will me doing this make you mad?” and i say “yes” WHY are you so suprised when i am mad?

SO ANYWAYS
danes mom is here for a week or so, and so is her baby, kali, plus her friend jessica, and her husband and baby. can we say “whew”? i have 3 days off in a row this week, but i think i am just going to run away. not that they arn’t all nice, but i just don’t know if i can deal.

i hate this damn computer. i’m out.

so lately my life has been a series of tests to see what can make me more annoyed. or maybe i am just uber sensitive and generally in a bad mood since my body is anti-beingokay.

work is dumb, mostly because my boss is one of those “i am so much smarter, funnier, and more attractive than you, you just work for me, and i will be nice to your face but then be an bitch when you least epect it” people, and i don’t deal well with that.

you left you gnome.

oh, and yay for tiff being here.

i have to get off the internet so someone can use the phone.this shouldn’t annoy me..

Mercedes Benz
Janis Joplin

Oh Lord, won’t you buy me a Mercedes Benz?
My friends all drive Porsches, I must make amends.
Worked hard all my lifetime, no help from my friends,
So Lord, won’t you buy me a Mercedes Benz?

Oh Lord, won’t you buy me a color TV?
Dialing For Dollars is trying to find me.
I wait for delivery each day until three,
So oh Lord, won’t you buy me a color TV?

Oh Lord, won’t you buy me a night on the town?
I’m counting on you, Lord, please don’t let me down.
Prove that you love me and buy the next round,
Oh Lord, won’t you buy me a night on the town?

Everybody!

Oh Lord, won’t you buy me a Mercedes Benz?
My friends all drive Porsches, I must make amends,
Worked hard all my lifetime, no help from my friends,
So oh Lord, won’t you buy me a Mercedes Benz?

That’s it!

i bought a gnome today.

foryou.

remind me WHY i waitress. i freeking hate people. what was i thinking….

well, in other news, i am ditching out on the parties tonight, and just hanging out by myself. really wish i could come home in a better mood, so i felt like hanging out with people. but no. i know i’d just go and be either quiet or mean, and i don’t fell like explaining.

blah blah blah life is good and i need to remember that.

the doors in my house are opening and closing for no real reason…

maybe they are telling me to come in and clean. but no. i will not. danes mom is coming out tomorrow, and though i should care, i think, that my house looks like crap, i am to tired/lazy to do anything about it right now. eh. she’ll just laugh and agree that sometimes house work is the last thing on your mind.

have you ever seen the movie ‘evil dead?” WTF is all i can really say about it. the guys are all over here watching it and it’s REDICULOUS. “JUST DIE!” we all yell, but no, here she comes again, this time … “is she? SHE IS!” yes, she is decapitated. how ’bout that.

went to my favorite bead store today and bought 60 some dollors worth of beads. and then a bathing suit. and 2 dvd’s. and other stuff. back just in time for work, which i freeking hate. have to go in at 11:30 tomorrow, and work a split. my body is just not happy with me lately, and it doesn’t help when i am this tired. but then ang came down, and we laughed for close to an hour staight at these crazy boys who frequent my house. she goes back to school in 17 days. I may leave to PA on October 1st. crazy.

alright, i am going to sleep, so i can get my 10 hours or so in. i swear, there is nothing better than my bed. well, maybe ice cream. but i can eat that in my bed, so it’s alright.

it was an evil kite

angie, i bought you something

and this is just for me. oooo i love them.

oh there is just some days when i come home and just want to lay in bed and NOT htink about things, and NOT freeking care if i am being a bitch.. which i am tonight.

blah blah blah september 3rd i go see a specialist about something i had hoped was over. but no. here it all comes again.

something fun though – the weekend of the 23-25th, i not only have tiffany here (hopefully!) but it’s also lisa’s huge b-day thing (it’s a tradition to go camping, and over the years the group has only gotten bigger) AND danes mom will be here and we are having a garage sale. not to mention the fact that i work doubles both days.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAaa.

i am going crazy.

went on a lovely date tonight, including (but not limited to) running naked down the river bank, my favorite chinese restaurant, a silly movie, a clear sky with lots of stars, and my wonderful boyfriend. Now if my body would just stop eating itself, i would be very very happy. i won’t fill up my journal with complaints, but just know i could use some chicken noodle soup. OH! and i got my hair cut today, by my favorite hair lady ever. It looks good. trust me.

and now for something completly different.

A – Age: 19
B – Best Quality: modesty. or my rockin’ bod. .. nope. it’s modesty.
C – Choice Of Meat: chicken. or beans, since they ARE considered a meat. did you know that? huh, huh?
D – Dream Date: planitarium. i love the stars. so much.
E – Ex (most recent): well shiiitt… okay, someone i ACTUALLY was with, for a substantial amount of time, in that i would actually consider them an ex? marty. thats f-ing rediculous. oh wait, no, it’d be dane, since i DID break up with him for a month.. (yeah, i am a bitch) (want to know whats funnier? marty and dane are best friends… )
F – Favorite Food: manicoti. thats not spelled right, but stuffed pasta tubes.
G – Greatest Accomplishment: getting to college/directing a play/raising my bro/not going crazy
H – Happiest Day of Your Life: so far? it would be some random day i think, where i was just happy. thats all. happy, would be nice.
I – Internal conflicts: social anxiety. seriously.
K – Kool-Aid: the kind that turns colors.
L – Love: is for suckers. …. or is that wearing sweaters in spring?
M – Most Valued Thing I Own: my own body
N- Name: *whispers* it’s a secret.
O – Outfit You Love: my robe. and pinguinj slippers
P – Pizza Toppings: cheese. LOTS of cheese
Q – Question you want to ask: when will i ever make up my mind?
S – Sport To Watch: football. though i am not real hot on watching any sports
T – Television Show: ummmm.. smurfs. or news radio
U – Unique habit: uhhhh… i like to do laundry?
W – Winter: is to freeking cold. but damn it’s fun for a minute or so.
Y – Year Born: 1983
Z – Zodiac Sign: taurus

emo walk!